a LOT of un-necessary guilt.

I was recently just sort of slacking off on a lot of things and today has been a really bad day slash catch up with my life day. I didn't like it very much but i think if everything that i did today was successful than i will feel a little better. I really don't like school this year and am very unmotivated. Im not sure why. But anyways to my thoughts:


I was running the other day and I kept hearing footsteps of other runners behind me and I tried really hard, but couldn't help but looking back. Immediately the story of Lot came into my head. About how he had to flee his city and couldn't look back as he was leaving. Now normally the focus of any sermon pertaining to this story is about how his wife looked back because she liked the sin so much and because of that she was turned into stone. Stone obviously representing death, failure, or hell. But what I felt God saying was to think how hard it would have been for Lot. To not look back on the city, and not because he wanted to keep sinning but he might have wanted to reflect on the fact that he failed to bring his city to Christ. And not necessarily in thin instance, but i think God was saying about how many times I look back and reflect and think too much about what I have done wrong and sinned on and get so caught up in guilt and self-pity that i will stop being pro-active. I think God was saying that the minute we forget that when we ask for forgiveness he completely makes us clean, than that is going to be the death of us. When we don't remember that when Christ died for us, we were no longer slaves to sin, but rather sin became our slave. That we don't have to dwell in condemnation of the the devil, rather that we can rejoice in what God has done and in our second chance.

Tell me what you think.


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If you could pray for motivation it would be greatly appreciated.

If any of you need prayer or just want to vent or talk I am always here and would love to be there for you.

Jordan Britton.