too much free time?

i have found myself being stretched lately for time, but my parents have seen it to be that I have too much free time. This is absolutely astounding, but it ended up in me applying to mcdonalds sometime this weekend. prayer?

how in the world?

I really am struggling on the thought of having to wait 3 years until we can be together. We probably have to date that long or be, as some people so patronizingly put it, "good friends", just for some people to take us seriously anyways. I just feel like I'm swimming against the current on this one. I know that I grow from being with her and I like to think that she has grown too, and if that is the case and it doesn't hurt anything then I don't think God has a problem with it either. He wants us to be happy right? And one of my lifelong friends is now dating so I can understand why he wouldn't have as much time to be with me and even my mom says that since I was a little kid I've always wanted a companion to be with. But i just feel like it's never gonna happen. Like Katelyn and Brooks, Anna and Josh, Kat and Ed. Why can't I just have 2 or 3 more years under my belt. I am just very weary right now and completely unhopeful in this aspect. And those of you who ever actually read this and don't take us seriously or don't believe we should be thinking of marriage this early, or have negative opinions of what you jus read: I would appreciate you not commenting on this because it was mostly for my own benefit of venting.

thanks for reading,

jordan