Weak equals good? sometimes; no times. New York Times.

2 Corinthians 12:8

Paul is begging God to take away his weakness that he has. He feels he could be much more beneficial to the kingdom of God if only he could have that weakness removed. God's response is astounding. It isn't anything like I'd expect like,"Because you have asked for this to be removed, so it will be done." God doesn't always work like I think or want him to. In fact, the more I get to know him, the more I realize how wrong I often am. He responds with this:

"my grace is all you need. my power works best in weakness."

I think a bit of this might be pointing out and revealing that Paul has the possiblity of being prideful. God is sort of like, "look Paul, it would be nice for me to remove this for you, but if I do then you will end up getting prideful because you have no weaknesses. you could end up thinking you are good enough without any of my help in the journey i have laid out for you. but the reality is, you do need me. i think this weakness may be somewhat of a humbler for you to remind you who's really in charge."


Wow.
How prideful am i?
the extremes i go to; just to prove i'm right; are astronomical. but is it worth it? is being right worth a relationship? not a well-developed one, but one that could matter to me later down the road. come to think of it, any relationship could come to benefit me (or not benefit me) down the road. wouldn't it be worth it just to accept that i am right in my own head and be the bigger person? oh man i wish i could have reflected on this thought before-hand.

"God. Jesus. help me."

And then Jesus says something like, "remember son. I died on a cross; was spat on by people who couldn't be more wrong, couldn't say or do anything to prove them wrong because that would set the wrong example, endure physical as well as emotional pain greater than anyone has ever experienced, all to save the very same people that were putting me through this; and at the same time- Love them deeply."

I am a bit jealous of Jesus' will-power and love here. I want to be like this when I grow up.


Please allow me to be inspired by your greatness. I want to help. I must become a servant. Yes, a servant to all who I come in contact with.





.Humility.