So you will be.

I love my Jesus. Wow. How I love you lord.


Let me just say that I am the kind of person that likes challenges. I like giving myself challenges. When I look at signs and see a word I will then play a mind game with myself and try to spell that word with letters from other signs. Or count how many times I can make the word again. Or see things like stop signs and see that there are at least eight other words inside of it. [top, tops, pot, pots, so, to, post, sot] Or to have an uncontrollable need to make sure I step a maximum 2 times per sidewalk square. This is me. I find it so amazing how God can impress me in ways that are so; how can I say, ME. He impresses me in ways and things that would only impress me. I love it. I love how he can plan things out so that they work like clockwork. How he can put something in motion days, weeks, even years before you know it and have it come out at the exact right time. How he can speak to you through a movie even. To have an undeniable sentence leap off the movie screen out at you; play the exact role you need it to, and know that it is from God. I am so in awe. He has started to put wheels in motion. I feel them turning inside of me. I am getting unbelievable insight that I feel an; obligation to tell. I can't be selfish with this. This is why I am here.


He has given me incredibly strong tools and equipment.

Her: She strengthens me, builds me up. Encourages; Oh yes, beyond her belief. Knows her place; and excels at it. Branches off from where she is at and creates other wonderful things to aid her and I. She is; Capable.

Holy Spirit: Guidance. Oh how I feel so young. So immature. But with him I am neither. I am strong, able. He gives me insight; incredible beyond my imagination. I cannot fathom what lies ahead. For although I am anxious, I must do my part where I am at now and wait until it is time.

Him: Love. Uncontrollable love. Inconceivable love. Forgiveness. The peace and tranquility of knowing you are right in his eyes. Encouragement from compassion. To share it. To; Evangelize.


I can't wait. For I know he has plans to prosper me. And yes I am scared at times. Terrified even. But then I hear his still small voice whisper.

"It's going to be OK. You are on the right path. Just run with it. You will make it where you need to be."

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And as for her.


I can't explain it. I've tried. And I will try again. But I will never do the feeling justice in adequate explanation.
- How can I feel so comfortable, so at peace. How can I have such love and tenderness in one moment of time.
- Strength; Oh indeed. She is capable, able, even remarkably good at providing. Just what I need, when I need it. And in all this bring me even more in love and closer to him. I can't help but think this is how it was; is supposed to be done.

But that thought.

Am I:
-Good enough
-Strong enough
-Providing
-Capable
-Smart enough

For someone of her magnitude. For I know; she is great. But then he says.
So you will be.